Its been a while...

Its been a long time since my last post, but I need to vent. I'm pretty much losing my mind at the moment. I'm taking 5 classes, playing varsity college lacrosse with a schedule of 3 games a week, I've been getting notheing but rejection letters back from publishers I've submitted individual poems to, and I have absolutely no free time to write anything new. I've heard people say "theres no money in poetry" so many times, and yet its what I love to write. I don't even know what TO write anymore since everything has to be marketable, targeted, formulated, and yet trivial, empty, or worthless. I'm just venting, but I have no idea what I need to be focusing on right now. I also have an option to make some money in modeling, but I have no time for that right now, and I might not have enough pictures to put together a substantial portfolio by the time I do have free time. I need some kind of relief.